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This is a godbye then

I heard the news that you're already with her. So it's real, huh? So you're really with her? So you really won't be around anymore? I'm sad and crying over myself for being this stupid and pathetic. For those regrets and apologize and endless "What If"s.But I'm happy for both of you. Happy that you already find the one who can brings happiness and put back the smile on your face. Even if I didn't expect that it would be this fast. But it's fine, it will be fine for me even if it takes time.

So this is a good bye then. This is really it. You already long gone, and moved on.

Getting myself sad again

"The worst thing about getting your heart broken is going to sleep, and knowing you’re going to wake up and nothing has changed." — Anonymous

Do you have to go? Do you really have to go? What’s changed?

Is it me?

Is it you? 

You were once stranger, you were once mine. Tell me what you are now. And What happen to the laugh to the tears we used to share? Is it that easy for you to let go all of those? But No. Not for me.

Have you ever been in love?

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like “maybe we should be just friends” turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain."

— Neil Gaiman