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THIS IS YOUR LIFE. Do what you love, and do it often. If you don't like something, change it. If you don't like your job, then quit. If you don't have enough time, stop watching TV. If you're looking for the love of your life, STOP, they will be waiting for you when you start doing the things you love. Stop over analyzing, all emotions are beautiful. When you eat, APPRECIATE every last bite of it. LIFE IS SIMPLE. Open your arms, mind and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences. Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them. Travel often; getting lost will help you find yourself. Some opportunities only come once, seize them. Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them. SO GO OUT AND START CREATING!

LIFE IS SHORT. LIVE YOUR DREAM, AND WEAR YOUR PASSION.

painted a tree

Aku udah jadi alumni smp aku. Ngga sekolah disana lagi :( Dikasih libur panjang kaya gini aku belum ada plan mau liburan kemana. Shania terus ngasih aku kerjaan, ngecat kamarnya. Nge-gambar di dinding kamarnya lebih tepatnya. Dia mau aku sendiri yang ngecat. with my own hands, ofcourse. Tadinya dia bingung mau digambar apa, terus aku ada ide, karena dia suka nature, aku bikinin gambar pohon. a tree on her wall.

measure&seketch -ing

painting
using tiny little brush for the detailed part..... lama
dan wallaa! setelah tiga jam akhirnya jadi deh. Tingginya sekitar 2,5 meter. Ternyata jadinya lebih dari yang aku kira, Shania said she really adores it :) tapi ini baru bagian pertama, soalnya kemarin udah sore jadi besok masih mau dilanjutin lagi, tinggal ditambahin daun! kira-kira nanti jadinya lebih kaya pohon pas autumn. Nanti aku share gambarnya kalau udah jadi semua ;) So.....i kinda proud of what i've done *infinite laughs ehehehehe*

Gosh, Im such a girl

''I can't see anything that I don't like about you."
"But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I'll get bored with you and feel stuck because that's what happens with me."
"Okay."
"Okay."


Screwed this. It's not gonna work between us. I know, he's such a good person, but for the reason (that i can't explain here), his kindness is just killing me instead. So i kinda confused, scared, and terrified of what i supposed to do. Hurting someone else ain't always as easy as it seems you know. Okay, i think a lot. These are some of what my friends said via chat and messages *translated it to eng*

"I know exactly what you feel right now, I do. And based on my experience, after gettin' thru this painful things, you'll find someone, waaaaaaaaaaaaay better than him. It's not your fault, dear. It's his fault. BLACK-LIST him." -rani-

"What if someday you'll like him? But if you really aren't, so don't keep going on. Who knows maybe he wasn't being serious and he'll lookin' for someone else right after you left?" -fira-

"For that person, you're his 'love for a lifetime'. Just be honest, say that straight to his face. Even if it's painful. Im pretty sure he's gonna be alright." -fito-

"you did the right thing. if you said you love him which is actually you don't, Sure it's gonna be more like 'mean' " -inka-

They are so right, and im not supposed to have the stress of it. I've got enough on right now without having to think about it. I already have all of that great friends and i couldn't ask more. I don't have time for all of this, i know.
Gosh, im such a girl.

F*CK YOU