to-do

THIS IS YOUR LIFE. Do what you love, and do it often. If you don't like something, change it. If you don't like your job, then quit. If you don't have enough time, stop watching TV. If you're looking for the love of your life, STOP, they will be waiting for you when you start doing the things you love. Stop over analyzing, all emotions are beautiful. When you eat, APPRECIATE every last bite of it. LIFE IS SIMPLE. Open your arms, mind and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences. Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them. Travel often; getting lost will help you find yourself. Some opportunities only come once, seize them. Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them. SO GO OUT AND START CREATING!

LIFE IS SHORT. LIVE YOUR DREAM, AND WEAR YOUR PASSION.

painted a tree

Aku udah jadi alumni smp aku. Ngga sekolah disana lagi :( Dikasih libur panjang kaya gini aku belum ada plan mau liburan kemana. Shania terus ngasih aku kerjaan, ngecat kamarnya. Nge-gambar di dinding kamarnya lebih tepatnya. Dia mau aku sendiri yang ngecat. with my own hands, ofcourse. Tadinya dia bingung mau digambar apa, terus aku ada ide, karena dia suka nature, aku bikinin gambar pohon. a tree on her wall.

measure&seketch -ing

painting
using tiny little brush for the detailed part..... lama
dan wallaa! setelah tiga jam akhirnya jadi deh. Tingginya sekitar 2,5 meter. Ternyata jadinya lebih dari yang aku kira, Shania said she really adores it :) tapi ini baru bagian pertama, soalnya kemarin udah sore jadi besok masih mau dilanjutin lagi, tinggal ditambahin daun! kira-kira nanti jadinya lebih kaya pohon pas autumn. Nanti aku share gambarnya kalau udah jadi semua ;) So.....i kinda proud of what i've done *infinite laughs ehehehehe*

Gosh, Im such a girl

''I can't see anything that I don't like about you."
"But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I'll get bored with you and feel stuck because that's what happens with me."
"Okay."
"Okay."


Screwed this. It's not gonna work between us. I know, he's such a good person, but for the reason (that i can't explain here), his kindness is just killing me instead. So i kinda confused, scared, and terrified of what i supposed to do. Hurting someone else ain't always as easy as it seems you know. Okay, i think a lot. These are some of what my friends said via chat and messages *translated it to eng*

"I know exactly what you feel right now, I do. And based on my experience, after gettin' thru this painful things, you'll find someone, waaaaaaaaaaaaay better than him. It's not your fault, dear. It's his fault. BLACK-LIST him." -rani-

"What if someday you'll like him? But if you really aren't, so don't keep going on. Who knows maybe he wasn't being serious and he'll lookin' for someone else right after you left?" -fira-

"For that person, you're his 'love for a lifetime'. Just be honest, say that straight to his face. Even if it's painful. Im pretty sure he's gonna be alright." -fito-

"you did the right thing. if you said you love him which is actually you don't, Sure it's gonna be more like 'mean' " -inka-

They are so right, and im not supposed to have the stress of it. I've got enough on right now without having to think about it. I already have all of that great friends and i couldn't ask more. I don't have time for all of this, i know.
Gosh, im such a girl.

F*CK YOU

unas

sebentar lagi unas.

udah siap?belum.

sedih, baru kalo gini-gini aja rajin belajar, rajin ibadah. hm
pokoknya jangan bebanin pikiran sama yang lain-lain dulu. buat sekarang fokus UNAS. pasti sukses amin!

01-007-007-02

after all of that coincidences and stuffs

I didn't have enough time to get plenty of sleep since last week, might get some writings done.

Here is one.

Heavy Rains. Flood. Tsunami. Volcanic Eruption. Earthquake.

It breaks my heart not being able to help out.

—-

“you THINK A LOT.” A friend once said.

I do actually. The downside of being me.

I feel kinda lonely these days. I know I have like all this great friends and all. But somehow, sometimes I feel so distant.

I’ve been trying to forget someone. trying to move on.

Letting go. Always harder than holding on.

Well, Sir. I’m letting go. I’m letting go. I’m letting go.

Shit. I can’t let go.

something always brings me back to you

perbedaan bukan alasan

“Our greatest strength as a human race is our ability to acknowledge our differences, our greatest weakness is our failure to embrace them.” - Judith Henderson

Belakangan ini banyak kejadian yang dialami oleh bangsa kita yang bersangkutan sama perselisihan antar agama, ras, dan lain-lain. Bukannya sok tau dan sok politis ya.. Tapi agaknya sedikit banyak berita berita di tv mulai mengganggu aku. Katanya kan Indonesia itu negara bhineka tunggal ika, dan katanya kan bangsa Indonesia itu saling menerima? Tapi hal-hal yang aku sebutin itu belakangan ini sama sekali gak pernah terlihat di tv (atau mungkin aku yang salah jam nontonnya ya -.-‘). semua yang kelihatan cuma amarah, benci, dan berujung anarkis. Penusukan di gereja ini, kerusuhan antar kelompok itu, penyerangan pondok pesantren anu, duh.. semua bikin merengut tiap nonton tv.

Dari kecil aku diajarin untuk menerima perbedaan dan menerapkan bhineka tunggal ika itu secara real. Jangan pernah membeda-bedakan orang, baik itu agama, warna kulit, status sosial dan semacamnya, karena aku gak suka di perlakukan seperti itu. Dulu aku liat sekelilingku masih bisa hidup dengan perbedaan, tapi belakangan ini banyak orang di luar sana udah gak menghormati perbedaan lagi yang dicari hanya kesamaan dan akhirnya jadi alasan untuk meng-eliminasi perbedaan? Gitu gak sih? Apa cuma perasaanku doang? Hmmm..

Kadang itu semua bikin aku mikir, ''kenapa sih, Tuhan nyiptain manusia berbeda-beda kalau cuma ingin disembah dengan satu cara?" dan aku akhirnya ngerti, mungkin karena itu juga Tuhan nyiptain cinta, yang berbeda-beda bisa nyatu (tapi inget, yang bener, cuma satu! )

I don't care if you like each other or not, but you will respect each other. – cach boone (black coach)

Mungkin masih banyak orang yang nggak tau gimana berkompromi dengan keadaan, bagaimana cara menerima dan menghormati perbedaan. Aku juga pernah gitu, secara nggak sadar (ataupun sadar) mbeda-bedain orang lain. tapi sekarang aku juga udah belajar, kalau kita melihat perbedaan dari jarak yang tepat, akan jadi satu kesatuan yang indah.

Perbedaan agama, perbedaan warna kulit, perbedaan bentuk tubuh, perbedaan warna rambut, perbedaan prinsip, perbedaan pendapat, perbedaan cara pandang semua jangan sampai dijadikan alasan untuk saling menghancurkan..

Toh hidup dengan menerima dan damai itu jauh lebih enak kan dibanding hidup penuh kebencian dan perasaan selalu gak puas atas keadaan? (yasheeeekk)

What do you think?